" Kelsier is just the most amazing character ever. The final fight was freaking epic between him and the Steel Inquisitor. If it ever got made into a movie or series, I would watch it just for that fight. And maybe to see if they picked a cute actress for Vin
And then when that happens I'll probably just be like "Fuck trying to get the edge, I'll just refine myself enough to beat everyone without it
" Most likely this is simply because I got a taste of having that edge, and now that it's slipped away, I'm pissed off and want it back.
yes!"
funny. I'm wondering if McCain has a myspace as well. Also on Obama's space, it has a tab in the corner that says "Powered by Hope" I thought it was amusing. But he's a clever guy. If you take everyone's wishes, and boil them down into a few words that can be used over and over, you have power.
but really. It feels like I'm in a transistion period in which I chose what's going to stay and what is going to go. There are certain parts of me that are slowly being shed and disappearing, while other parts are growing in strength. I wonder what will happen once it's done. What will I become? I'm kind of excited. It's also kind of saddening.
I love coming up with names. God knows I'll forget them in like 5 years) It was a little awkward overall because I trust White, and because I trust white, I trust Cookie. But I really don't trust Dirty at all. They just feel wrong somehow. I don't know how to explain it, but it feels like they're tainted. (hence why their nickname is now Dirty) But I could escape all of that by going fast. By making my muscles push me so that the wind blows through my hair. My only focus is going faster.
but yeah. I went in feeling like I wanted to bite heads.
pretty much at least. Since I could only remember about 3/4 of the answers. So I went through my notes and reading to find the rest. People around me were more or less doing the same, or just looking off of someone else's paper.
it looks pretty legit. Yeah, one looks a little more pixily because it's a copy of a copy. But I can just say "Different printers
" and it'll be totally okay. It's not like she's going to say "YOU PHOTOSHOPPED IT" It was a little effort. But I had more fun doing that then actually doing the test :]
(there was a curve added onto my already amazing grade
) will help. I drew a cool picture that I'm proud of on it as well :]. Also. We found out the some chemists don't get any. Or are just in the closet. Because we learned about how charges with balls and a rod.
and then I wrote some stuff on it.
I have a lot of coloured dry erase markers, and hopefully I draw some stuff on it, or write some stuff. Probably both, knowing me
Right now "Reverence Out~" and "Monochrome Sunset" are the only things on it. Along with a couple of pictures that I have taped to it.
that'll be maaad cool.
it'll be more fun. Oh well. It'll be a slow transition still.
OKAY.
So last night and today have been filled with little moments of enlightenment. Mostly today more than last night. Last night was more of a "Aren't the ironies of life amazing?" So I'll start with last night, and the move on to today. Today's might also be a little lazyily done, because I pretty much got everything out that I wanted to get out, so there really isn't much left so say other than I DID get it out.
So Saturday night for me is D-day. In my own opinion. And I realize now that the D can stand for Dance
since that is what is going on that night. But anyway. The plan for Saturday night is that I go to the dance. If I like it, I'll stay, and see if I can ask red to a dance. If I get bored with the dance pretty early on, and decide it's not worth staying, I'll leave to Friendly's with S. Hopefully S's friend will want to come to, so it won't be as painfully awkward as I forsee it being. Of course there's the idea that I don't go to dinner at all, I get bored with the dance, and go home without anything happening. Which probably will happen, now that I think about it.
Though the funny thing about it is that Dani and I have established that our relationship is very ying-yang. If things are bad for her, they're good for me and vice versa. She's been having a lot of relationship drama for the past few weeks, while I've had none. So HER D-day ALSO happens to be Saturday night as well. It's just how she planned it.
So we've both decided that we'll guess how the other's night went judging on how our nights go. Though we've also thought that MOST likely, neither of our nights will be good or bad, they'll just be blah.
So today was Group day! It was interesting. I said pretty much nothing
I feel a little odd with this group of people. :[ I miss my old group.
But anyway, the most important thing was that I was getting a feeling from three people in there all at once. Which usually never happens. It's usually only one on one when I start to get perceptive about certain people.
But it bothered me, it felt like I was going to explode. And I pretty much did. Slowly. I went to Pat during lunch and talked to him about it, and we had a very good conversation. And it pretty much ended with him telling me what I've been telling myself. I've got to trust my own instincts.
"The only thing you'll ever actually KNOW is your own experiences." Or something like that. While I was trying to find an absolute answer, the only thing that I Can find, or will ever find is the abstract truths that I make for myself.
I guess I'm okay with that.
Although in the next few sessions, I will try to keep an eye on one specific person the entire time. Because really. I want to know what she's about. I can either dislike her, or just be very curious about her. And really, I think I'm more curious than there is for a dislike. I can't dislike her unless I know at least a little about her.
And who knows. Maybe she'll shed some of this offensive personality that she has, or maybe it's just something that she hides behind. I wonder who really is behind that person at Oz. Will the curtain reveil a portrait of what I've been seeing all along, or am I going to find a girl that hides behind a storm of words and thoughts to keep from having the sharpness of reality cut her?
And I also wouldn't mind getting to know Colin. I know he's an interesting person, but from what I heard him saying, it'll be cool to talk to him more. He's a pretty deep person. He got me thinking about a few thigns too. But anyway. Molly comes first, because she was driving me insane.
And maybe it's a little arrogance as well, now that I think about it. She said she's perceptive, and I don't exactly trust or believe the things she says yet. So maybe I'm just trying to find proof that she's not what she says she is. Really though, I'm just curious as to what the hell her deal is.
And it's more of a "What the hell is up with you?" kind of thing than the innocent curiousness that I normally have.
Anyway. That's all I have for now. I don't think I'll have another entry today after this one, since I doubt that anything really important will happen from now until I go to bed. I also have to remember to E-mail my mom the add that I did for her, and tell the Gladiator the URL. And that's the end to my "note to self"
hopefully I'll remember. Like I haven't for the past couple days.
I know I got lazy with Molly and Colin
if they're names become vaugly important later on, I'll think of some nicknames for them. But for now...! I'm off!
Out~
I've never found my match without cheating. So I didn't get a lollipop. But oh well. Colour wars are tomorrow. Which means each class is given a colour and you have to wear it. This year though, we get points. So it's getting pretty competitive. Or at least more than it was last year.
jk. But real injuries give you extra points
I have enough wraps to make me look like the Mummy, so I'll figure something out.