HOLY SHIT.

That's pretty much all I have to say at least right now anyway, that's what I'd like to say. Just scream it to the sky and then keep on walking with the clouds. Let me see. The date...I don't want to forget the date.

March Twenty Seventh, and March Twenty Eight, of the year Two Thousand Nine.

Never will be forgotten. The day I walked off a cliff, and I'm not quite sure if I've hit the ground yet. I'd like to think I'm floating. I've discovered that I can indeed fly, and I've dropped some chains at the bottom of this chasm. But there's also the possibility that I can't fly, and what I'm feeling is actually falling, and I'm going to hit the rocks and die.

That's pretty much all the detail that I want to go into that for now.

I have some stuff to make up for though, I've been gone for a while. Mostly because I've just been so damn tired, and by the time I sit down to do one of these, it's like midnight and I'm like "Well. Should I write in my blog and be dead tomorrow? Or not write in my blog and be semi-dead tomorrow?" You obviously know what won.

Anyway. I can't remember the exact date, but I started to go onto MSN again, in which I started to talk to Dani. Funny how things with her just slip back into place despite the fact I haven't had any contact with her in three months. It's also a little bit depressing. Because it means that our lives are so simple, three months is not enough time to change us in a way that is spectacular. She's gotten me back into writing, and I've joined up with a couple of sites. One is filled with a bunch of hard-asses that I'm pretty much going to abandon, and the other is filled with some friendly looking people. They're pretty much all from the UK, but they seem pretty nice.

Let's see. Let's start with Friday. Because Friday was abso-fucking-lutely insane.

It was field trip day, and we saw To Kill a Mocking Bird. It was actually really fun. Good natured fun. The play was pretty good, and then after that we went to go eat lunch. White Noise and Rocker did the whole whip cream thing, which to me seemed pretty stupid. But after that, we found an abandoned shopping cart, and of course that meant that we had to have rides in the cart. That was a bunch of fun.

Time Skip: Skipping over esentially pretty useless info

Talent Show! Our school has some pretty damn talanted people. A lot of really good dancers, singers, and those that can play instruments. Actually...now that I think of it. Those were the only three talents that were displayed. But it was quite the range. Belly Dancing, to Hip Hop. Rock to Pop. Pianos, guitars played in many ways, drums drums drums. Overall it was really cool. And of course there is Holland :]

After this things got pretty freaking insane. I met two new people that I'll probably end up seeing a whole lot more than I'd usually see. I'm just not going to bother nicknaming them. Anyway. Cerise and Julia were pretty much running the show even though the four of us were the older ones. We of course were the only ones that could drive, so that gave us some power over the whole situation. Though Con was the only one that knew were things were.

Anyway. When we got to Dan's house, we just chilled, seeing as Cerise and Julia had brought home these three other guys that were crazy awkward. They really didn't do anything worthwhile. Me Con and Colin ran around a bit, doing some stuff. Dan regretted not coming with us because he was stuck with the girls and the weird kids.

They went home after the three of us came back. This is where I walked straight up to the cliff, and this is where I'll stop being specific.

It was actually a lot easier than I thought it would be. I always imagined I'd put of this huge fight, or it would either fly past me. But the edge appeared right at my toes...I looked at it, and just dropped. Though maybe it wasn't even that. It was more like you've trained and trained for this one conflict. You harden your mind and body, getting yourself ready to fight back. To kill it when it comes to your face. This huge monster, you'll vanquish without a second thought. But when it finally got to me. It wasn't a huge monster. It was a little fiend really. Nothing spectacular. It was disappointing to tell the truth. Though at the same time, the monster came in different shapes. Which was odd because mine ended up being smaller than the others. Even though I was starting off from square one like a couple of the others there.

Oh it wasn't sex. After re-reading some parts of it, that's what it sounded like to me.

Anyway. The rest of the night ended up being pretty fun. Though not too much got done. Everyone decided to get a little lazy, and eventually we convinced Cerise to put in Kill Bill. Even though she didn't really want to watch. Ironically, she was the one that watched the most of it. I was asleep like after the first couple scenes. Dan and Jack were out before the movie started. I think Con and Colin followed my idea. Julia disappeared. She did that the next day too. I guess she really doesn't like us that much

Anyway. Saturday for the most part was pretty slow until I went back to Con's house. This was just slightly ridiculous. His family was having a party with a ton of parents there, and one of his cousins was buying an ounce, and was having it delivered to him right in front of the house. NOT the smartest move on the face of the planet. It then was Discovered. I don't know how he managed it, but he got it all back.

From there, a lot of driving insued. Because I only have two other friends that can drive legally. And at this point we had gathered a group of about nine people. So we were a little battallion of cars driving around Connecticut, trying to pick everyone up, eat, drop everyone off, and make it home without hitting curfew. Surprisingly, it was managed.

After this we again went to Dan's house, pretty much having the same people as we did the previous night. Me, Con, Dan, Colin, Cerise and Julia. I have a feeling that this will be the crew from pretty much now on. Seeing as Cerise is Dan's sister, and she's pretty cool, and Julia has the respect of Con and is like Cerise's best friend.

I don't know. I'm getting lazy with this. I'm so freaking tired. I don't understand it. There's so much stuff on my mind too, that it's eating me alive. I just want to sleep, but I can't yet. There's also all this wondering as to what the future will bring. With Holland, with Al-Val, with the group in general, with Yellow and Casper. It's just insane. At the same time, I enjoy it, because at least it's something. It's dramatic, and I think I'm seeing that as I get one freedom, I'm caught by something else that's tying me down.

I don't know. I have  SHITLOAD of writing to do tonight. Homework and recreation. So this blog is a bit tedious. Though I do want to put an entry in tomorrow.

Out~

I know that cliff you're talking about. I've been there myself. It's always there when I feel very, very tired... just like yours is there when you're tired. I almost consider it to be my friend now. Is that strange?