I first really want to start with what happened not too long ago.

I was hit. Hard. By lights and ink.

I've been thinking a lot about Religion and the afterlife, and what I actually believe in. I decided that religion was something that you had to believe was actually true, and that lived around you. Not something that someone feeds you on a spoon. So what did I do? I started to create a philosophy about life and death that I think defines the world. I think it explains things that can't quite be explained, and allows for a smooth transition between what is seen and unseen.

And while I'm not going to go around preaching this idea, it's something that I like to think about. But I couldn't just think about it anymore. It was driving me nuts really. So just now, I took a pen and wrote it in my journal. Just dumped it all out.

Well not all of it. There are still different parts that need to be explained.

But the core part. The part that I think is most important got tossed onto paper.

And it came out so easily! It was amazing. There was no time to think. If there was something that I hadn't quite thought about yet, it just came out. Empty spaces were filled instantly, and something real and whole was created. It felt so good.

For the longest time, I didn't have the motivation to write that much, but this kind of rekindled it. Like it was a blockage in my brain, and now that I finally cleared it, other things can come out now.

 And honestly, I feel better as a person.

Like now that I got this out of me, I cleaned up a little bit of the mess that's my body. I still have a long way to go I think, but at least this is out of my system.

Though, I don't think they're Dead Time Stories anymore. I think they're more like Stories of the Earth. It feels more natural to think of them like that. Because nothing really dies. There is always life. Life just keeps going and going and going...

Anyway!

My laptop is officially dead. I desperatly need to get it to Mike. Which I will try to do tomorrow if I can. And hopefully it'll work. Quickly too. I'm so upset that this happened. But right now that mood can't compare to the happiness that I got when I was scribbling away.

Out~