So I realize I'm being super inconsistent, and that most likely I wont be writing for a while, and that's how it'll work. I'll freak out and write like three entries in a day.

And then wont say anything for a week!

Or maybe I'll start writing more frequently again, because I realize how good it is to put things down. It's nice. I don't know.

What the hell! That's all I can say. I can't handle that. Why do people do that? Give themselves up to God? Who the fuck is God anyway? An abstract being, that may or may not exist. People like myself is what killed church for me. Being stuck in a room filled with people who just say words and don't mean anything with them was sickening. And now I'm all up in arms when I see people who actually do believe.

It's ridiculous.

But seriously. People who are giving their lives up to some THOUGHT. Really. If God does exist, I expect Him to be just a mass of life. There's no way in hell that whatever it is, it can think. God would have to be the thing that sparked life in the world, and then the current that keeps it moving in the same direction. So I hear about God's plan.

Essentially. I think God's plan is this. We're born. We die. We don't come back.

BANG. That's the way life works. That's the way the world works. I wont get into whether ore not there's an afterlife, because that's even more ridiculous. It's impossible to even argue that one either way. For me at least.

But how can someone think that God is going to give them everything that they need in life? They're just closing their eyes and looking at the weird green afterimage that comes after looking at a really bright light. People Pray for their guidance. I want to talk to one of these people. Like face to face, and watch them defend themselves. I want to pick and tear at the way they live their life. Maybe they can get me to believe that God is a benevolent being. Maybe I can get them to believe that humans are their own gods.

I don't know. The whole idea is freaking ludicrous.

Oh. And I saw Wolverine.

Totally not worth it. Hugh Jackman is a great actor though, and the girls behind me got a kick out of seeing him naked. I think they fabricated a lot of stuff though. I wont even get into it. I think I've said it like 5 times, along with the reasons why. Which is way too many times.

I think I'm going to read now! More Monday probably. Or Tuesday. I doubt I'll have anything to say by tomorrow unless I have some crazy dreams.

Out~