Wow this week has felt like a blur to be honest. I've been trying SO hard to make it to the end of the week without anything getting in the way that I've torn through days without thinking about them. Honestly the picture I'm getting in my head is of some kind of bear rushing through the brush, crashing through all the sticks. Behind me is memories that almost seem like a blur now.

Though there has been something in the past few days that has been important. Heart is in the hospital. He was high on at least weed, and very possibly more than that, plus drunk. He wont tell me directly, although he's probably on some heavy drugs right now. Anyway. He crashed, broke six ribs and collapsed a lung. He's on a respirator and oxygen and blah blah. Oddly enough, even when Al-Val is all freaking out about it, I can't get into it. It'll be weird to see him again. I feel so detached from him.

Speaking of detached (I'm going to jump around a bit) I spoke with some people today that I haven't spoken to in like a year. It felt so weird. Almost comfortable. I'm used to things changing year by year. Even if I talk to someone for a while, every year brings a different feeling to things. This though, I felt like a Sophomore back in Biology class. Back to that comfortable easy place, where the most conflict I had was Bruce and Yellow. I'm not sure if I like it or not. Though I do want to talk to Mushroom some more. She was always someone really interesting. Someone to watch. She seemed to always have more under the surface than she ever let anyone see.

I think today's main event happened after school. Which wasn't even that completely amazing to be honest.

I nabbed this and this though. I was amazingly happy with both of them.

Anyway. We had photography club today, which might turn out one way or another, and I think today I got a taste of both. I really don't have any solid friendships within the club. Casper is there, and so is Cookie, but they're usually involved with each other. So I end up usually going off by myself. Conner's Jen (which I'll have to find a name for at some point, but I'm too lazy right now) is a really interesting person, and she'll pull me into her group if she gets the chance. To me, she seems to be older than she actually is, and that's the only reason why she wants me around is that I end up that way too. So we talk. Then there's a couple of other people there that I know name and face, and can talk to. I want to get to know a couple of them better. Especially the president. I don't know why though. More on that later. Hopefully too, Mushroom will join, so that'll be cool.

Wait, I totally went off track. Two worlds thing blah blah blah. The club can either go one way or another. One way being how today's meeting started. I am my own entity. I float around, say this and that to certain people, but other than that, I'm by myself. Or it could go how it started to go later, which was this: I jump around from group to group just because I can, and while in the group I'm actually a solid part of it. So I'm never really alone unless I'm in transit.

I also finished my story last night for Creative Writing. That's why I didn't write a blog, because I was too effing tired because it was too late. But I felt it was a pretty solid story. Unfortunately, it comes out to exactly 9 pages double spaced. Though I don't mind the length; the people of the class will bitch and moan when they get it. Because of this fact, it's making me look at the story again and seeing what I really NEED and what I can take out. So that'll probably done tomorrow during some down time. I also need to do a simple read over, since I just finished it, saved and passed out.

I've also come to a conclusion about a couple of my teachers. English teacher: I like her a lot. I've come to respect her a lot. I want her to read my story and critique it. Creative Writing teacher: I feel like she's below me somehow. Like she belongs with the kids that'll go to community college and end up in a minimum wage job for the rest of their life. The Photography Club Sponsor: She seems interesting. I don't know her that well, but I have a feeling that she'll be one of my more liked teachers.

Saratoga tomorrow!

Out~