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We have some things to discuss.

First off.

I REALLY want a Zune, it's bad. I'm probably going to get the 16gig zune. Seeing as that'll probably last me long enough. If I happen to go over 16 gigs, it'll be far enough into the future that I'll be able to afford the 80 gig zune. And I seriously doubt that I'd go over that limit. I kind of want to get art on the back of it, but at the same time I'm not sure. I wish there were like shells for it that I could change depending on how I felt. Most likely I wont look at it that often anyway.

Next on my list.

Because of the Let Go amv that Amber sent me with the Devil May Cry anime on it, it's finally tipped the scales. I've been wanting to pick up Devil May Cry for a while now. People have said so many good things about it, and I've read a bunch of stuff, so I finally broke down. I bought the first game. And so far it's pretty fun. It really doesn't have much of a plot. I like don't even know why Dante is in this stupid castle to being with. He just follows some random chick who promises revenge.

The castle is pretty big, but annoying. And I'm glad there are a decent amount of enemies to take my frustrations out again. Because there have been parts that I've had to look at the walkthrough and been like "Fuuuuckkk" pretty much because I didn't walk far enough. For one thing I spent like half an hour searching the castle, and it turns out I only needed to walk a few more feet in one direction to start the cutscene.

But I can totally see how God of War found it's roots in DMC. Dante is more romantic. Having a matrix like feel to thing. Or Karas. But overall, I'm glad I picked it up. And for 5 bucks, even if it sucked, it wouldn't have been that painful.

Oh yeah, and the double pistols are way cooler than anything ever.

I'm going to start off this section by saying that I'm not gay. But I should honestly, at least for the rest of high school, just say that I am. Because honestly, this is not fair for me.

I go to the Spanish Club dinner, and that's about a quarter of the conversation my Mom is having with other people. "Oh you have a daughter? How old is she? Really. My oldest is 17." "Oh really. I should've brought her. They could've chit-chatted."

The club was really cool. It felt like I was this little boat in archaeic waters. I was being buffeted around by the waves that were being produced by these old sailing ships. They were grand, but covered in the scars of the sea. Even though I was in better shape, they could find winds I could never dream of. It was kind of amazing to see them all.

Except for the fact I was being pimped.

Although I haven't seen any of these girls yet. So who knows. Maybe it's just the fact that I don't feel any control over the situation.

Then. There's Casper. I've changed her nickname because her other one was poop. Anyway. Casper has finally after all this time come out and said that she likes me. Which I don't know. It doesn't bother me really. I already came to deal with the fact that she does a while ago when it was impossible to ignore. But this is the first time it's come out in the open. Because also Cookie has started to trying to convince me to get in a relationship with her, and I really don't want to. Not because I don't like her. She's one of my best friends. But I just can't see myself getting into something with her. I really don't want to change something that's worked for this long just because the hidden has become outright.

Also, I don't want to lose a friendship that I value.

I'm also kind of afraid that it'll be another Amber situation. Like now that this has come out, it's eventually going to be sucked into a closer and closer friendship until it becomes something more. Esentially, Cookie is right, Casper is a good person. Unfortunatly, it's me that I'm worried about. I feel like I'm not as good as people say. That there's something bad about me. I don't know really.

I don't even know who I like anymore.

Because then there's Al-Val and Star. And I don't know. I want Saratoga to come.

At the same time I feel like I'm being overly dramatic because I'm tired, and in reality, everything will just be as boring as it always is.

Out~