May I just take a moment to express my frustration in smoke.

It's freaking annoying.

When I started learning about that stuff so many years ago I never thought for a second that it would affect my life so freaking much. I'm glad I dropped the whole grudge thing a year ago, or else I wouldn't be friends with like anyone.

Out~

So guess what? Guessguessguessss.

I'm at the library. But not my school one. I'm at my Town library. Which means that my internet is DEAD. It's horrible. Yesterday we lost power like twice. I think...I'm not sure. The lights were doing a bunch of funky things. They Xbox even pulled a red ring.

The Xbox recovered though. The thing that did not recover was the little modem thing that runs the internet in the house. So without that thing working, I lose the one thing in my house that I really entertain myself with. It kinda pissed me off yesterday, but I'm pretty nonchalant about it now. I can always drive up to the library, which wont kill me. Besides, it'll get me something to do with my car, which normally just chills out in my driveway. Kind of literally now...it's not good for it.

Today was actually pretty interesting, I think at least. I'll go backwards seeing as I've already started that way.

We had to bring Sage to the doctor's office today. She was due for a couple of shots and a blood test. It's kind of sad, because I still think of her as a baby. Seeing as she's only two though, she still is a baby, regardless of the fact that she weighs 80 pounds. Also, she hasn't been feeling too well over the past couple of days, and my Dad thinks that she has the beginnings of arthritis. So it's pretty sad.

It took longer than I thought. Apparently there was another dog that was being brought in, and he/she had a seizure. She/He also had another seizure while in the room near us, so our doctor had to be rushed out to go and deal with it. I really hope that dog is okay. It definitely doesn't sound like he/she is having a good time at all.

I also finally finished The Beach! (okay, I'm going really out of order, but whatever) It's taken like what....a year? Year and a half? To actually finish it. I put it down for a while. Honestly. It didn't get too much more exciting haha which is the reason why I put it down. But I think that I aged in a certain way over that time so that I could appreciate it. I STILL have no freaking clue why Rhys found this book to be hilarious. If anything, it's kind of depressing and scary.

Especially the part that he said was the most funny. I found it the most scary. Having your friends ripping apart dead bodies, and then turning on you? Oh wow, what a riot! So yeah. It's a good book though. It's a bit random, but it makes you think about a lot of things. Because you end up starting to put yourself in his place, because he seems to be such a real character. (okay he sees things, but who doesn't? Right... haha) I definitely suggest people reading it.

OKAY. Group today! This is what I wanted to write about the most. Funny thing is though, I had a more complex time then than I normally do. And this time we only had like 30 minutes because of our 90 min delay.

The thing that struck me most was how many people were there. Actually it didn't strike me...it SMOTHERED me. It was bad. The fact that there was a reporter there I think added to it. So on top of the fact that there were a lot of people, there were a lot of nervous people. So I was filled with so much nervous energy that I was like ready to rip my necklace off, and force my ring to be a perfect circle again.

The heating system IS old hahaha. I can hear like a roar from the basement whenever it turns on.

Anyway. So group was rough. On top of it, I felt so out of the loop it wasn't funny. White Noise had also mentioned to me how the group was supposed to be better. So I had all these pre-conceptions about it, which kinda failed? I'm not sure. I wasn't able to bring up what I wanted to bring up. I mean, I could've been like "Hey! I want to talk about this.." But I just couldn't bring it up from inside of me. I wasn't in the right mood.

Also another interesting thing. Talking and getting to know Star has had an interesting effect. I don't know what it is exactly. But I feel a little closer to her than I do the others in the group. Probably because I actually built a trust with her instead of just the free trust that everyone in the group automatically gets. It was also funny when White Noise made a comment about maybe becoming a Psychologist and she's like "NOOooooOOo" After I thought about it a bit I realized I would have almost dismissed her tone of voice, but now I know the story behind it. It's kinda nice knowing people.

I guess that's it for now. I hope my internet is fixed soon

Out~